| I introduce you to my new boyfriend. mason :) |
[Nov. 6th, 2009|01:23 am] |
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| | room | ] |
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| |  in love | ] |
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| | the wendy darlings - eleasy | ] |
He is the first person to actually write about ME this time. I usually do all the writing between whoever it is i was in a relationship with, but today made me feel really special because he wrote a poem about how he loved me. he was also willing to share it in class. :)
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| Improvement |
[Nov. 3rd, 2009|09:24 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | music review/sharing | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the xx, "islands" + radiohead's "weird fishes/arpeggi" | ] |
I HAVE BEEN PLAYING THIS SONG ON REPEAT FOR AN HOUR OR SO NOW. ITS TOO COOL NOT TO SHARE.
i love the backbeat! reminds me a lot of santigold's. i also love the vocal melody, so minimal but very effective. very staccato making it have this infectious rhythm. Notice the lick that starts on 2:08. the guitar has that redioheadesque feel to it. some sort of reverb that is similar to what you'd hear on weird fishes/arpeggi.
LYRICS. I just had to put them here too.
"Islands" by the xx
I don't have to leave anymore
What I have is right here
Spend my nights and days before
Searching the world for what's right here
Underneath and unexplored
Islands and cities I have looked
Here I saw
Something I couldn't over look
I am yours now
So now I don't ever have to leave
I've been found out
So now I'll never explore
See what I've done
That bridge is on fire
Going back to where I've been
I'm froze by desire
No need to leave
Where would I be
If this were to go under
That's a risk I'd take
I'm froze by desire
As if a choice I'd make
I am yours now
So now I don't ever have to leave
I've been found out
So now I'll never explore
[x2]
So now I'll never explore
ENJOY. :) |
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| thoughts nov 2 '09 |
[Nov. 2nd, 2009|11:16 am] |
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I haven't tasted notes as sweet as this, for the longest time, dormant, not one to twitch, and I regained that fire, and I regained that promise, that conviction, the passion I taught myself how to erase, just in total defense of all inflicted pain, and you are worth any risk, and voiding every fear, I know no fear except that of scents that make you flee away. Suppressing and keeping them in. |
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| thoughts for the day: nov 1. '09 |
[Nov. 1st, 2009|05:37 pm] |
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| | work | ] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
If energy is the capacity to do work, then work is my energy to obtain energy, In a sense that work has the capacity to gather up notes and conjure up a bowl of thought steam as I always say, smell it, It smells like ideas. Still it has something missing. A lot of things are still uncooked. Bubbling from the core, up and Surfacing.
As anorexia is not an answer nor a choice, a tense twisted state of mind controlling these insides. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 27th, 2009|07:54 pm] |
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| |  nauseated | ] |
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| | emmy the great - mia | ] |
he says " me ma klcuy ot vhea uoy"
can't help but wonder if this is a reassuring command.
brain command. marching to the rhythm.
you look into my eyes
i just try to guess.
i dont even want this to sound poetic anymore.
bah. |
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| Stimuli |
[Oct. 25th, 2009|09:45 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Home | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | anxious | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Absentee - emmy the great | ] |
I've been a fan of history's stories but never it's dates. The rawness of what had happened transcending as you absorb and become grateful because you realize that you are living in the present. I have yet to apply this principle to myself when it comes to personal issues, and until then i am suffering.
history is essential to learn from and do better, and the past can't be wished away, but what are you supposed to do when your half just can't seem to let go of it and your other half is just dying to devour the day.
maybe i should be free from anything holding you back because it tends to be an anchor on my part.
frustration traces my thoughts knowing you can be such help, but dragging because her ghost is still haunting you. she peeks under my bed from time to time. i wish she was some fly i could swat. and she would just drop and make a small thud on the floor. |
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| nccn |
[Jul. 17th, 2009|12:18 am] |
I hope I don't wake up tomorrow. |
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| vegas, day one |
[Jul. 10th, 2009|04:32 am] |
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| | IN THE CAR | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | ipod on shuffle | ] |
Its 4:05 in the morning and conversations about where we were, how to get to las vegas and such, was at a constant flow. Stories of cop incidents were of course included. I however, being anti-social as always, am locked and latched onto my earphones and blogging from my sidekick.
I Have nothing to see right now, its still dark outside and were just rolling unto what seems to be an endless road. My eyes are giving up on me but I couldn't get myself to sleep. Well, not until I've written something. Anything. I haven't written in so long. And I miss my old self. I would always be saying something about anything. I noticed that everytime I'm out of the house, im reminded of who I was, and at home I'm molded into this boring tofu. So bland and white. When I'm out of the house, I see things that remind me of what I used to do at home (back in the philippines), when I had free time, and no one would scold me or stop me from doing so. I used to have a personality, now I don't.
Its so hard to be yourself when people at home think you're childish or irresponsible. But im supposed to be THAT, right now, especially NOW that I'm only 20. In a few years I need to shape up. But not now. Im supposed to be out doing fun things. Enjoying my life. To experience it 1st hand, for historian's to take reference from. maybe in the future when im wrinkly and dying.
Old people are so closed minded. And I hate it. I promise myself to be as open as I could be when I have grandchildren. Even if fashion means showing their tits and walking around in panties. Well hey, respect the times man. Always!
Too bad I can't do anything to avoid the wrath of my stubborn grumpy grandparents. I just hope when I grow up I won't say "I wish I tried this" and it'll be too late for me because id have responsibilities :(
Where are you alex!!!!!! FUCK |
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| How to Concoct a GOOD/EXTREME ARTIST |
[Jun. 1st, 2009|11:18 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | artists, break down, slice | ] |
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| | room | ] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | M83- highway of endless dreams | ] |
copious amounts of Depression,
Good Reading Habits,
Insanely Awesome taste in music,
Extreme sensory nerves
Getting High from nostalgia
BUT...
you also have to pair it with:
Hours of nothing to do,
Hours of experiencing feelings
Hours of exercising a talent or skill (medium of expression)
No Human contact for a couple of days.
Hours of isolation basically.
HOW TO ATTAIN?
In your head... you'd be saying "how the fuck can you do all these things?"
simple answer. YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOME KIND OF MENTAL DISORDER,OR HORMONAL DISORDER. it makes sense doesn't it? ARTISTIC GIANTS, TIMELESS MUSICIANS, ACTING CAPABILITIES?.. WHAT DO THEY HAVE IN COMMON? DEPRESSION. FUNNY.. ISN'T IT?
one day you're up for wasting time on learning new things, the next.. you feel like shit and you just want to examine yourself and wonder WHY you're feeling depressed. hence; isolation.
AND after which, an idea, an image, would so happen to spark in your mind, you rush to your canvas, to your piano, to your journal, and in an instant... artistic orgasm..
shoot me if i'm wrong. |
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| Maybe It's time |
[Apr. 5th, 2009|04:14 am] |
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changes now have been significant, and tapping these notes to tap into forgotten nerves has been satisfying for motor cells in slumber. many factors that point at faults and at times these factors are at an agreement with newton and at times oscillations are my salvation but they have not been for the past 2 years. I was ready to give one long exhale, waiting for my eyes to roll back into my skull everyday. but now maybe life isn't so mundane. And maybe my middle finger will rise up to the world . especially to the people that took advantage of a hope that a good friendship would unsheathe itself from good conversation .If you think things are stupid, they probably are just stupid because you don't understand them. A great sadness exits under my small,constant exhales along with the faith i invested in turning you into something you aren't. Comprehension and breaking down to find solution to things isn't your forte. and this whole blog is turning into a letter of spite towards you and your nonexistent humility. but this is the last of my ranting because I am moving forward. and I won't even tell you what i expect tomorrow to be like since like a burn out, nothing enters that head of yours but your own biased thoughts. my tone is calm, and I am at ease. I am happy to be where I am right now and it will only get better from now on. I found my niche. (for now.) |
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| I have been inspired by.... |
[Mar. 15th, 2009|10:20 pm] |
A lot of things lately. Online music/fashion blogs, twitter, amazing people, the city, David (TM) and what not. so, i have decided to make this blog into a less personal/more informative and mass appealing blog. because no one reads about my shit anyway. SO, Today is the start of my half self centered-ish blog which will tackle many amazing things under the sun that maybe you, or YOU! might be interested in. THE WORLD IS SUCH A HUGE PLACE and It's sad that our heads don't have enough capacity to absorb all the information about it's past, present and "would be's" so maybe we should just go through it one thing at a time and hopefully, you will be there to do this with me. :) this blog will talk about people, clothes, rocks, Nicaragua, and if you're lucky maybe sex. but in the mean time I shall talk about this one online site i recently discovered called "12 seconds".
"12 seconds" is a status update site that gives you a 12 second VIDEO status update rather than just text like with what twitter and plurk does. Why only 12 seconds though? It's because it only takes 12 seconds (average) for people to start getting bored while watching video's online. (unless it's THAT interesting that they'd be glued to you.)
So, I made an account right now and I haven't posted anything yet but hopefully tomorrow i will.
feel free to check it out too. it inter connects with your twitter account so if you post anything on http://12seconds.tv/home (12second.tv) then it will automatically update on your twitter as well. :)
ENJOY! :) |
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| i feel ugly |
[Jan. 10th, 2009|01:13 am] |
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i think i would consider getting a nose job |
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| hers his ours mine |
[Nov. 22nd, 2008|09:33 pm] |
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| | home and waiting... | ] |
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| |  impatient | ] |
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| | queso-insekta | ] |
is, i surface and today
to harmonize with your cry
strength to build a thick rope to grasp
laugh behind stabilize.
face of a fetal memoir
beckoning a pounce
face to touch and burn my hands
face to touch and bring me to tears
face that sees maybe some.
and a heart that is unsure
the crazy hair we both have
to quote love lines.
maybe stretches out since things are vague.
but a harness thin, keeps me sane.
i love the whole. supreme being |
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| *phew* |
[Nov. 2nd, 2008|02:32 pm] |
THIS WEEK WAS KILLER!
I've been so busy the whole week! i did my homework for Wednesday's class because i knew i was going to work Tuesday right after school, then i worked till closing on Tuesday, had a math quiz last wed. had to do my stereotype paper for Friday cause i knew i was going to work Thursday and then i also did my long ass math homework last Wednesday right before i left for Ashlee's karaoke birthday surprise. i ended up going home at like 12 something. and then i had to wake up really early for my photography class. I actually had to take the bus going there. and i was late for an hour at least. but i ended up working on more prints and i showed Arthur all my prints.
surprisingly, he really likes my pictures. which is a good thing.
and he actually liked the picture of Thomas' intense singing.
and that's what I'll enter in the student gallery for November to December.
Then Thursday came and this bitch psychologist bailed out on my session. (well i think she needs more help than i do now that this happened. it happened twice now. and i have the cards to prove it.) she actually wrote down my schedule on a piece of calling card. and it's still with me. and i can prove to her shes a fucking flakier, unprofessional son of a bitch.
so anywhoo. i worked till 4:30 last thursday because *THANK GOD8 ^_^ there was a black out through the whole mall. everything closed down at 6. but we were chilling with mrs kim. the korean boss from hell.
it was funny cause she said "hecka" and she's so old school it was just funny for me and rhea to hear. she also said slippy instead of slippery. hahahah i know my english isn't perfect either but hahaha. its just really funny to hear from her cause she's cute when she talks. she doesn't have eyes when she smiles hahahahhaha
*oh my god. it looks cute on you! -mrs kim (*her eyes dissapear*)
BAH! hahahahha. anywhoo so as friday came i let go of homework cause i did everything in between the week and it was time for me to relax. i took a long ass nap until 5 after i came home from school at 1:00. and after that i just sulked and stalked on facebook myspace and multiply... and i saw pictures that made me furious. hahahaha but whatever. what can i do. it's my fault for engaging myself in such positions. ANERWERS,
i dressed up as a fafinette this Halloween and didn't get out of my house till like 9 or 9:30.
fafinettes are those girls made by the artist called "fafi" they wear striped socks and hoochie beaters or like hoochie skirts. i didn't show my legs cause they're fat and it was cold. so i ended up wearing stockings then leggings then the striped warmers..
Pictures bellow ;D
i got home at like 2 something and then i had to wake up at 7 cause i worked at ten am last Saturday and went straight to rhea's place right after. and came home at 11:30. there was so much food and there was a jumper and shit. we played guitar hero, jumped in the jumper and sand karaoke again. and now it's Sunday and I'm trying to rest. i just got done with resizing the 3 albums from this week and from press b's show at log shop.
visit my multiply for more pictures. :)
yay! |
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| Volta - 2007 -2008 |
[Oct. 31st, 2008|07:02 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | bjork, volta review | ] |
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| | up yours | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  literally feeling cold | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The whole volta album | ] |
Category:Music
Genre: Other
Artist: Bjork
i give her **** / *****
Bjork is one of my favorite artists. one reason is, she's a genius in a sense that she never runs out of ideas for concept/theme albums. a person can only do so much, and create so much. and albeit this fact, there are a few who break these boundaries. e.g. musician's who created classical music (classical; meaning several styles/genres written in compliance to European form/structure) Bjork has been playing the flute and writing music with her father since age of 12 and Living in Iceland gives you a limited amount of things to engage yourself in. and music was one of the few choices.
This album contains:
1. "Earth Intruders" (Björk, Timothy Mosley, Nate Hills) – 6:13
2. "Wanderlust" (Björk, Sjón) – 5:51
3. "The Dull Flame of Desire" (featuring Antony Hegarty) – 7:30
4. "Innocence" (Björk, Timothy Mosley, Nate Hills) – 4:26
5. "I See Who You Are" (Mark Bell, Björk) – 4:21
6. "Vertebrae by Vertebrae" – 5:07
7. "Pneumonia" – 5:13
8. "Hope" (Björk, Mosley) – 4:02
9. "Declare Independence" (Bell, Björk) – 4:10
10. "My Juvenile" (featuring Antony Hegarty) – 4:01
Volta; contrary to popular belief of it meaning something "electric" is actually a river in Ghana, Africa.you'll actually hear that in between the tracks of this album,the sound of water and sometimes flowing, which i think represents the river Volta.
you'll also notice that almost all percussion from some songs are old tribal drums, the use of a marimba which actually is a an African instrument. (same concept as with what toto did with the song "Africa". used tribal drums and marimba's to get that African feel) African call horns are also present here and of course electronically manipulated effects (percussion and melodic) as what Bjork is known for.
most songs have motor rhythm. it obviously has a back beat. AGAIN, another distinctive fact that supports the African theme to it. since motor rhythm started way back to African tribal rituals then progressed to blues and so on. This album has a constant knack for beats as compared to her other albums (e.g. Vespertine
or medulla. medulla being a theme album with only human vocals and no instruments at all) Dynamics are pretty well played off here. for instance; in her song "dull flame of desire" (a duet with Antony Hegarty) she describes this constant back beat as that of a beating heart that grows stronger and stronger -and the bass drum grows in volume level through out the song as well as the brass section. Melody is very catchy through out the album. You can expect most melodies coming from her to be very conjunct, melismatic and mostly very tuneful. this is somewhat as commercially consumable as post, and debut. especially because of timbaland having to co produce several songs. but not all her songs are full bodied; with constant melodic instruments. there still are songs in this album which feature just her voice and random percussion. unlike post where in everything sounded thick and consisted of a rhythmic background involving not only percussion but musical instruments too. (except for "Headphones") "i see who you are" which it resembles to. This album still has a feel of dissonance in some of her songs (which i think Bjork is known to pull off all the time) at the same time maintain it's position of being able to sell. an example of this is "declare Independence" where in everything was very dissonant as very thick electronically manipulated snyth patches and brass motifs were played in contrast to her very monotone approach to this song. this is the only song in the album that had a non melodic stir to it. the heaviness to it resembles that of "army of me" although with a less melodic appeal.
This whole album is a mix of very minimal sounds with a lot of brass accompaniment and electronically manipulated beats and at the same time thick with back beat and melodic accompaniment. It said to be as tasty as post and debut. Although i think, it isn't as textured as both albums mentioned in respect to its solidity in structure and harmony and rhythmic melodic background. This album has a very catchy set of vocal melody. and a perfect blend of dissonant instruments to her very melodic voice as usual. It's the same brilliance seen in all of her albums and the only difference is that it's a different theme. i may be biased cause i really love her. but i think this deserves 4 stars instead of a 5 just because i like her more orchestral set of songs compared to her synth and beat infused songs. i think for people that aren't used to listening to her songs yet. or are new to her style should go for post. that album did it for me. and i think it will be the best album to show you Bjork as a collective.
I'll post the whole album over here pretty soon. if i figure out a way to work itunes. I'm stupid and stubborn to even fiddle around with that shit,
but until then. just look her up on you tube to sample on her tracks.
ENJOY :D |
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| you know what |
[Oct. 29th, 2008|11:18 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | bam | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | in your hair | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | busy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | fear before the march of flames - on the bright side she could choke | ] |
if this image of splendor is very well put out
by you, for me to see
then i'd be ashamed
but since it isn't
and err is equal
we shouldn't go preaching as if we were saints.
this leaves a tense gut
-masks your intentions
as i've had a straight face since when
you've 360'd
i don't even know who you are anymore.
so let's just talk about guitar effects since you piss the fuck out of me.
i thought that the "box of rock" from the series of zvex hand crafted effects was the best distortion ever made.
but when they ran it into a Les Paul it sounded not as great as i perceived it to be. Although i must say it has a very wide range of tone. it has that blues-y feel to it at the same time, slightly effective replica of the marshal amp (as they pattern it to sound like) you can also control it to sound like an OS1. or somewhat like an os2. which is great in my opinion. but then again. it all depends on your amp and your guitar's pick ups. mine are just stock pick-ups so you could imagine. or (shouldn't) *wink* imagine how it would sound like. cause its HORRIBLE.
i have so much gear i want to buy but I'm so BROKE.
i over drafted again and had to pay the penalty of a hundred dollars . which in my opinion is fucked up. (i hate my bank)
i also want to buy a violin. even just the generic one.I WANNA LEARN HOW TO PLAY IT. i can play a bit but not hair flying head bobbing intense violin playing though. cause I've always been in love with the violin. AND cello. actually. I'm in love with most string instruments. especially the harp. I also like the sound of a music box. (which is not string by the way. but i figured i should include it cause its owzamm) ahhhh <3
i have to find a way to get more money. but this stupid economic flop is not helping. i read that the only thing we could do at a time like this is save and not be greedy. it said in the article that we should actually be happy with the low income we STILL HAVE. like what the fuck? is it THAT BAD?? lol. but yeah. i guess he's right. he also said to save up and go back to basics. bring packed lunch. etc etc. I DON'T KNOW if i could do that. i crave for food a lot. and if i don't get it. I'll eat and eat and eat. I'm pretty sure i have that tendency to be obese. since it runs in my family. i hope i don't get to that point.
I've been going to the gym pretty regularly now and i guess it KIND OF helps. but. hahaha i get so tempted by food. its not even funny.
and this entry is GOING NOWHERE.
but i think it's good i'm venting out.
OKAY :D time to do my english paperrrrrr |
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| pres55 B |
[Oct. 28th, 2008|02:02 pm] |
ok so this is longggg over due.
i just finished the roll of film from the show so i only got to develop them in class today.
today was just lab work and some submitted their work for the gallery.
i however have not done that yet. I'm way behind my projects. although i hope one of the press b shots gets picked for the gallery. although ofcourse i still have to ask their permission if ever that happens.
errrnyyywaayyy;
here are four of the shots so far. burned and dodged manually. used a 4 1/2 filter on the enlarger. used arista 200 black and white film for this. and arista rc photopaper.
there's more to come i just haven't had the time to do them.
i also have shots for press b in the other camera. but since its so large i have to re size and what not.
i love how these turned out:
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[Oct. 27th, 2008|11:39 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | at home | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Rocking Horse Winner - Sleep Well | ] |
I just got home from school and i thought about how i let my school work just pass by with out me putting much effort into it. I'm pretty much in deep shit right now cause i lost my binder a couple of weeks ago and now, i lost my math book. Jesus fucking Christ. How am i supposed to be "ON TOP" of things if i wont have the material for me to fucking read. i lost my syllabus along with my binder. and i don't think this my math lab gives practice tests or reviews. but i may be wrong. i am actually looking that up as of the moment.
but so far. i have to complete all of this by the end of the day. after i write this entry I'll go about everything and try to accomplish everything.
*look for my math book
*pay for my phone bill
*transfer money to debit account (i over drafted again)
*Do my laundry
*start on my "stereotype paper" for English
*Write a petition to wave my school fees. which is fucking stupid By the way.
*Do a review paper for my hours by arrangement (English)
*shoot and conceptualize my "strange and mysterious" image for photography class.
I ALSO HAVE TO :
make a matte frame for one picture i have to submit for the student artwork gallery thing.
Process my new set of negatives
ugh. write a review on an any news article for extra credit
meet up with psychologist on Thursday
work Tuesday Thursday and Saturday.
go to Ashley's birthday party on wed.
aaaaaaaanndd I'm wasting time on the internet. i should probably start off by eating lunch. and crossing these out one by one. i hope i get to do them all .
I'm so sleepy :'(
have a good afternoon! <3
PS. (it's funny that i said this. I'm actually listening to "sleep well" by the rocking horse winner. This is the theme song from when i left the Philippines. lol |
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| on track |
[Oct. 26th, 2008|11:16 pm] |
Today was fun, i went downtown with my aunt and my mother
i finally got to buy my mic. its a samson co3u. (which is weird cause i noticed that before writing this entry it was actually advertised above the live journal site)
i finally got to record a new song. but it isn't done yet. ALTHOUGH vocals are pretty crisp with this mic. i must say. i don't regret paying for that mic. although I'm not satisfied with the guitar distortion. its not the mic's fault. the amp i have here is a crate amp. very small crappy practice amp. but i mean i think it'll do cause im not trying to make a super pro song here. its just there so i could finish one. with back up vocals 2nd guitars and possibly piano if and WHEN i get the time off school , work and homework. and house chores. I'm pretty excited with what i can do now that i have the mic. i dont really need an external sound card anymore cause i can out the synth to this amp and mic it in with the co3u. PERFECTO!
i cant wait till tomorrow. after school. i'll go straight home and play around with this.
i hope i get to finish this song already so i could think of ways to edit it out.
ahhhh!! this mic gives me something to look forward to everyday :D
next thing to buy : KORG kaosilator
ahhkkk!! i should just spend my money on instruments and gear. this is driving me nutsss <3 <3
hoorah! okay off to eat dinner then i'll hit the hay
goodnight |
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